Even though I am on maternity leave, it feels as if I have less free time than ever, so every moment has to count. I'm giving myself some goals over the next few months and I am very excited about what is yet to come. I have decided that if I cannot attract a publisher or agent with my current manuscript for Average Girl: A Guide to Loving your Body, I am going to self publish. My goal has never been to make money with my book, I just simply want others to benefit from my research and writing. I am passionate about making information about body image theory accessible to more young women. These next few months, I am going to work hard to get this book out.
In the mean time, I will continue to work hard to update this blog monthly. I feel like it needed an update, so I hope you like our new look! Going forward, I would like to continue to write about body image but also write about living an overall great life. Nothing is off limits and I am excited to start this journey!
Now to answer the question, many of you are wondering...do I feel the same about my body image now that my body has literally gone through the biggest change of my life? Yes and No. My attitude continues to be the same and I truly believe many of the same things I felt before. It's been 4.5 weeks since my little one arrived and I have yet to weigh myself. Why not? Well, first of all...I don't know where my scale is. I've wrote about it before, I do not weigh myself because it causes too much anxiety around maintaining or being a certain weight. I always go by feel...and I have to say that I am feeling great. My body really went through the ringer when I had the cesarean section and the recovery has been very hard. I am just starting to feel like myself.
Sometimes I feel myself mourning my old body, but I am also very proud of what I look like and what I've gone through to create and grow a human life. How cool is it that women can make people? I must say that I have no shame in how I look today because of this. The hardest part for me has been the fact that I haven't been able to get back to playing sports right yet. I am itching to get back to that hockey rink! With a cesarean, there is a six week minimum recovery time...and that is just regarding the incision site and not all the muscle and layers that have been cut through. I've read that it can take months to be totally healed.
Being a mommy, in a mommy body is very Average and I am loving (almost) every minute of it. When I start to question how I feel about my body or feel like comparing my body to celebrities and women who haven't given birth, I just remember how amazing it is that I have been able to do this. I am very lucky.